Jun. 7th, 2005

zenmondo: (Flame Warrior Vader)
I think I have discovered a new superpower. It appears that I have the ability to say something and have a single sentance expanded into a plethora of vile, nasty things.

I submit to the jury, exhibit B:

http://www.livejournal.com/community/astromech_tech/2677.html


There is a flaw in my character that I just can't let these things flow.

So is it me?

Has something changed recently that I am attracting drama faster than I should?

I honestly don't get it.
zenmondo: (Me)
Ok folks:


I am seriously wondering if I am really presenting myself falsly. It looks like we have an ...
Exhibit C.



Archive of Exhibit C )

Now this one makes me mad, because I didn't say ANYTHING ANYWHERE that even hinted at homophobia. Exhibit A, I can see what was taken and blown out of proportion, but this one has me at a loss.

I honestly do not know if he is joking or sincere, as I cannot read him at all. But this doesn't read as a joke at all with me.

This would be comical if read by those who actually fucking know me, but gods, I just can't stand the idea of being slandered by a net-acquaintence and have their assesment of my character believed by others.

So if [livejournal.com profile] jedi_maceao did indeed have a crush on me (it is possible given the way he has interacted with me) and I didn't reciprocate does not mean I do not dig guys, it means I do not dig [livejournal.com profile] jedi_maceo in a romantic fasion.

I also don't like how he feels he "had" to leave [livejournal.com profile] jedi_knerds because I am a "Kracka ass kracka or an ass-hat", no one asked him to do so.

I am not sure how I feel about being called a "Kracka ass kracka" by someone who is as it seems to me to be a fellow cracker, peckerwood, or whitey, what have you. <-- HUMOR. WIT. NOT A RACIST COMMENT. SARCASM. OFF THE CUFF COMMENT. DO NOT READ TOO MUCH INTO THIS. PLEASE. SERIOUSLY. SEE THIS IS ME BEING FUNNY. I AM A FUNNY GUY. HONEST. JUST ASK ANYONE WHO ACTUALLY KNOWS ME IN REAL LIFE AND/OR INTERACTED ONLINE WITH MORE THAN THREE YEARS [deleted continuing joke here, because the wife was certain it would be taken wrong]

So now in all seriousness. Three points. Everything after this is NOT a joke, and is sincere, and true. I am trying to be CRYSTAL CLEAR in this since so much lately that I have been saying has been taken wrong.

1) I am not a homophobe. In fact, I think it would be real nice if I someday had a boyfriend, and think about such things just slightly less than often. Ofcourse never having had a romantic relationship with a guy, I have no idea how it would turn out, or if I really could swing it. I identify as Het, as that is my only experience, but am not adverse to the idea of transitioning to bi some day.

2) I am sincerely worried about [livejournal.com profile] jedi_maceo right now, and fear that he might be having some kind of episode and could use some support or help, or some time on his own to come down from it.

3) I do not see the 'net as an anonymous interaction, and I cannot divorce myself from what is said because "it is only the internet". Everything said is from a real, breathing, feeling person, and it is read by someone in the same condition. I have a genuine emotional reaction to what is said -- I do not see the net as a level of abstraction of fiction. A friend just gave some advice: "just ignore it," but I have to ask, could you ignore a slander yelled to your face in a crowded room? Or how about from a podium? It is hard to ignore.

I have often seen the net as a beautiful thing that has facilitated connection and interaction with people in a way never before possible -- and we are all people on the other side of the screen. I am not text. This text is a product of who I am. It represents me, but is not me. Some may call me over-sensitive, but I do not think I am the only one.
zenmondo: (Default)
The irony and comedy of THIS topic coming up after my last post does not escape me. All I can say is that the gods must be crazy. At least I hope that I am not going to the "gods making me mad" part that comes before "gods destroying me" part.

Some of you may remember my outrage when Education Secretary Margaret Spellings pretty much demanded that an episode of "Postcards from Buster" not be aired because she found the very idea that a Lesbian couple on a children's television show to be inapropiate.

The family depicted on this show are being honored with the "Families of Courage" Award by the Pride Coalition.

You can read the story I did on 365Gay.com.

You know, I really really fear political rhetoric these days, but the thing that scares me the most lately is the use of "outside the mainstream" to mean any thing not in line with the conservative worldview, and the implication that such thinking is "unamerican". This country, and our representation in the government is very close to the middle, those leading the majority may yet find themselves outside the mainstream if they are not cautious.

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