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Moving thoughts
Nov. 9th, 2006 12:29 pmSo I may be moving either sunday or tuesday. I'll find out tomorrow if the manager can give me the keys for the weekend. Its something she likes to do, but the lease is gonna be singed on Monday.
Conor is not taking it well at all. In fact he is pretty mad at his mom over this thing.
The other night, he was asking why JoLynn and I were breaking up. He asked me why I made mom furious and mad, and I told him that I didn't do it on purpose. Then he went to his mother and said, "Dad says he doesn't make you furious on purpose... does he still have to move?"
It just broke my heart.
Stuff like this would usually send me into a deep deep depression, but I just go into this place now, I know assisted by the anti-depressant I take. My situation reminds me to be dilligent with my meds.
I try to look on the bright side of things. I will see him every day after school, and have him on the weekends. I am not losing my son. I'll probably be happier in my own place. But I will also be lonlier, but I have been pretty lonely in my own home anyway, even with people around.
Once I get settled, I think I will try going back to Aikido. I will have to make an effort to meet people, it will be all too easy to just retreat online like I have been all year.
Conor is not taking it well at all. In fact he is pretty mad at his mom over this thing.
The other night, he was asking why JoLynn and I were breaking up. He asked me why I made mom furious and mad, and I told him that I didn't do it on purpose. Then he went to his mother and said, "Dad says he doesn't make you furious on purpose... does he still have to move?"
It just broke my heart.
Stuff like this would usually send me into a deep deep depression, but I just go into this place now, I know assisted by the anti-depressant I take. My situation reminds me to be dilligent with my meds.
I try to look on the bright side of things. I will see him every day after school, and have him on the weekends. I am not losing my son. I'll probably be happier in my own place. But I will also be lonlier, but I have been pretty lonely in my own home anyway, even with people around.
Once I get settled, I think I will try going back to Aikido. I will have to make an effort to meet people, it will be all too easy to just retreat online like I have been all year.
