zenmondo | hrm

You would think having lived more of my life diagnosed with mental illness than not, I would get used to it. You would think that I would have learned to be at ease with it. You would think that I could just shrug off its effects in my day to day life. You would think.

Today has been odd. I have had waves of anxiety and depression wash over me.

One of them even had a physical effect on me. I got pains in my body, in my side and in my chest -- it became difficult to breath. Very unpleasant to say the least.

I try to be unashamed at how I was made. Unapologetic for my mind that is considered unhealthy. But today, I just want to be well.

I am tired of being who I am.