still crazy

[zenmondo]

So, uh, buffalogal managed to get me seen by someone today. This was after I had been passed around from one angency to another like some kind of bad penny, only to find that no one would do anything for me. It seems that if I wasn't suicidal, I was not urgent enough to be seen. I killed that paticular demon quite some time ago, I do not fear me ever being suicidal before, but I was so desperate for help, I considered faking it, if it would get me seen.

So now I have a little less than two weeks of samples for a new medication, and I am feeling a bit optimistic.

So, it looks like I am going back on meds. ah well, it was good while it lasted. So ends my career as a plasma donator I think. The downside, is the loss of a potential $50 a week... the upside, I can get a tattoo, accupuncture, or have sex with a guy -- the first two activities would prevent me for donating for a year, the last forever.

I am still a bit out of it right now. So, I am not gonna start reading my friends page again -- maybe.

Comments

[darkphoenixrisn.livejournal.com]

Glad to hear you found some help.

[wyvernfriend.livejournal.com]

I'm so gld to hear things are working out!

[pippi-az.livejournal.com]

HUGS glad to hear you are feeling a little better :)

[goldenmoonrose.livejournal.com]

Glad you might be feeling better, or at least there is hope.

I hate that about blood donation (the homosexual discrimination) since AIDS and other STDs are no longer more likely in the gay community than the straight.

[bridgeweaver.livejournal.com]

Here's good stuff hoping that the chemistry helps without altering those parts of you that you want to remain.

[liplash.livejournal.com]

I know. I have never been able to donate plasma. I was too young and then I was bi, but not nessesarily in that order. :)

- L

[lunza.livejournal.com]

I'm glad you're feeling better.

[chu_hi.livejournal.com]

the upside, I can get a tattoo, accupuncture, or have sex with a guy

Ooh, the possibilities. Which one will you do first?

Seriously, yay for optimism. Lots of luck, and let us know how they work for you. :)

[hheather.livejournal.com]

*hug* Glad you got some help.

[marshmellin.livejournal.com]

You're not crazy, zenmmondo.

*hugs*

But it is great that you're getting some help. :)

[zenmondo.livejournal.com]

But I *am* crazy, if you consider mental illness "craziness". I guess its part of me refusing to acknowledge the stigma that mental illness has, and I am as a recent-ex-friend calls "reclaiming the slur".

Maybe I should make some "Crazy Pride" t-shirts.

[marshmellin.livejournal.com]

I don't refer to it as craziness. My dad is bi-polar and I refer to it as a problem he can't help.

[zenmondo.livejournal.com]

In that case, I sincerely hope I didn't offend, then.

[marshmellin.livejournal.com]

Oh, no, no! You didn't offend at all!

I'm just saying that I wouldn't consider you crazy. I'd consider it a problem.

It's not like you can help it - you were made that way. I don't know if you're a Christian or not (and, quite frankly, I won't view you differently one way or the other) but in my opinion, God didn't make junk.

You're great the way you are and to hell with those who'd say or suggest otherwise.

[nectarfizz.livejournal.com]

I would get a tattoo of a cheetah after all he started all this. (I am only joking here..no offense meant love)