Is it deja vu?

[zenmondo]

As I went to donate plasma today, I caught a reflection of me from head to toe in the glass door as I approached. I saw myself wearing my Hack-Tic t-shirt, my superman belt, black jeans, and Doc Martens. I was flashed back to 11 years in the past in Amsterdam, where I would wear exactly that on a typical day.

Am I stuck in a fasion rut? Or have I just found whats comfortable for me? Its not like a t-shirt and jeans are out of fasion, but I think its kind of funny that I am wearing the same things 11 years later. And in the case of the belt and the t-shirt, the exact same items. I am just glad that my t-shirt has lasted this long.

The T-shirt was a gift from friends who knew I wanted a Hack-Tic t-shirt. I got to Holland shortly after Hack-Tic ceased to be, but all the Hack-Tic hackers were at their new enterprise XS4ALL. So there was still a little tiny bit of Hack-Tic swag to be had, and I scored a t-shirt.

I sometimes wonder where I would be now if I still swam in Hacker circles like I used to.

Right now my skills are more applied in Second Life writing scripts. Its not important work, but its still fun, and in a way reminds me of hacking with some of the things I do.

I just finished a job writing a trolley system for a friend. It paid L$15,000 that can convert to about $50 USD. Definatly the biggest job I have done. I probably wouldn't have quoted that much for the job, but by the end, I felt like I earned it. That quote was actually by another scripter that bailed on the job for some reason, so I inherited the job with that pay. In all honesty I would have done it for L$12,500 :) But I was happy for the big pay day. There is another trolley route that needs doing, with more turns, and two sim crossings. Don't even know if I want to tackle it or not. We will see.

Comments

[elvenforever.livejournal.com]

You sound happy busy, Zen!

[fenix-harbinger.livejournal.com]

I think we all tend to hit a certain age and get in a 'fashion rut'. What I have observed is that people get stuck in the decade in which they were happiest. My Mom was forever late 60's/early 70's. I held on to the 80's as long as I could (in the main, as the 70's had come back, and I was not thrilled with them the first time around).

I think the real question, Zenny, is this; Are *you* unhappy with your appearance? If no, then don't sweat it. If yes, then by all means, do something.

SL has been a wonderfully enlivening experience for me as it pertains to my own personal appearance. I got refocused on clothing and accessories simply by playing "dress up" with Fenix. She's as close to accurate for me as I can get with the sliders, so when I see something on her and like it, I know I can go look for it in RL. And have. But, I was up for a change by that point. I had been in a rut for a decade or two, and did find that I wanted out.

I say never change for changes sake. Only do it if you really want to, only do it if what you change to is an improvement over what was, and only do it if you have the time in to discover what it is that best reflects you now.

YMMV...

[(Anonymous)]

I'm actually commenting on a post in the joltfinder community here, but I'd figure that you wouldn't read 2 year old posts' comments, so here goes...

2 years ago you posted about Jolt Finder being mentioned in a finnish blog. Apparently the site that you referred is down as of now, but the site is actually the magazine's site, and Jolt Cola has been a demoparty/lanparty favorite in Finland for years, so I wouldn't be surprised that they wrote about Jolt Finder in the blog.

Also; Jolt Finder has helped me to find Jolt in stores I was not aware of, thanks for that :)