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zenmondo ([personal profile] zenmondo) wrote2005-07-14 02:12 pm

Fuck Buddy? Where?

So I logged into OKCupid to take a quiz that looked like fun. I am back on my homescreen, and at the top is a banner ad for sexsearch.com proclaiming, "Meet a Fuck Buddy in ... CHEYENNE".

And I am all, do they KNOW how far a drive that is? Certainly I have driven hours for a fuck before (but more than just that) but in my life right now, it would be incredibly inconvenient. If I were after such a thing, I would want a local person.

I don't know if I could HAVE a fuck buddy. I have fallen in love or was in love with everyone I have ever had sex with. I tried once to have meaningless sex, I really did. We fell in love. I still remember the first time she said, "I Love you". It was such a big deal because we started out with her saying, "I am NOT going to fall in love with you."

I think the closest thing to a fuck-buddy I could possibly imagine actually having is making love to a friend for mutual comfort, fun, and love. I don't think that will happen, but it is in the realm of imagination that I could be alright with in real life. Kind of like a movie-star crush. I have one movie star crush right now, but I know its not going to happen ever.. I mean when am I ever gonna be in the same city as Alan Cumming? Never gonna happen, but fun to think about.